CARRIE LEFT THIS WORLD AND NATALIE TOO BECAME AN AMPUTATED MOTHER .... Carrie Ann Smith (2005-10-02) THE APP AND ALL THE READERS SEND THEIR
DEEPEST CONDOLENCES TO NATALIE AND FIRST INTERNATIONAL CHAT WITH NATALIE 10/16/04
Dear
Natalie and Claudio, thank you again for yesterday great chat
(and thanks also to Nick and to our dear relatives). Today
I have asked my mother if she has weared a pink or peach dress, lately.
She answered no, then I realized that she was wearing a tissue around
her neck that was beige, pink, peach.... I have asked her how
long has she been wearing it and she answered "for many
weeks!" (Gosh, I didn't notice it!).
Love and Light to you
all,
Antonella (Tilda)
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Messages from Jacquie Written By Sharon Mortz with permission of Sharon Mortz A bereaved Moms Story of Loss and the Love that continues after Death and her communication with he daughter and messages from her. - Love and Light Natalie --------------------------------------------------- Jacquie, my daughter, died on 9/30/01 at the age of 27, and as I face life without Jacquie I look for signs and messages from her. I search for normalcy. I ask God if this is a punishment or a lesson. I ask Jacquie to contact me. I try to quell the panic. I try to honor Jacquie and her artwork. I ask God why. I pray that Jacquie is ok and is with God. I ask for forgiveness for anything that I have done and I apologize to Jacquie for any petty criticism or mother/daughter argument or times when I said "no." I am trying to get comfortable with the inevitability of death while searching for joy and the certainty that there is more after this, that I will see Jacquie and that God has a plan for me and my daughter. Why did she go before me? I try to balance my spiritual life and search for God with my secular life and seek peace and purpose. I question this writing. Does it have value? Is it my purpose. Will it help another parent? This is a condensation of my most memorable contact with Jacquie without regard to dates, circumstances or chronology so they are different events on different days and may appear disjointed - actually they are disjointed. I have reconstructed highlights of readings with two different mediums (Natalie and Ocallah) and included my own experiences that I believe go beyond coincidence - I believe Jacquie is contacting me. As I seek meaning and answers and my philosophy and religious beliefs gel, I chronicle this contact in the hope that I can offer comfort and hope to other parents who have lost children. My daughter contacted me the first time via the phone. This was an instrument that she used frequently and productively while here on earth but I was shocked when I realized that her skill extended into the next life. A couple of weeks after her departure, my friend Joe, a hypnotist, made a house call to hypnotize me in an attempt to help me deal with my grief. I was to learn a couple of weeks later that Jacquie had contacted me that evening. During the hypnosis session, I turned off the phone ringer so that one could only hear the click each time the answering machine picked up another in-coming call. I had about 12 calls that night during the one-hour session (an unusually high number) and only one caller left a message -- my friend Mary. After Joe left, I returned her call and Mary said that she had called only once. The identical scenario occurred to Brad (Jacquie's boyfriend) and JJ (her best friend). A few days after her departure, Brad was cleaning Jacquie's room while I went to the airport to pick up my brothers and sisters arriving for the funeral. Brad had spent considerable time with Jacquie at our house and now kindly he was helping me clean up and get things together. During the time that I was at the airport Brad received about 12 calls again with no answer when he picked up the receiver. Eventually suspecting that it might be Jacquie, he spoke her name into the receiver letting her know that he was receptive. Again, on the morning of the funeral, JJ received about 12 calls at home as he prepared for the funeral and again there was no response when he answered the phone. He too believed there was a possibility that it was Jacquie and whispered into the phone "Jacquie, I love you." It was not until we later compared notes that we started to wonder if Jacquie was using the phone to contact us. We three were closest to her and maybe she wanted to let us know that she was still with us that first week that she left this physical earth. On January 9, 2002, my birthday, I attended services at the Church of Spiritualism with three of Jacquie's friends (including JJ) and Jacquie contacted me. My attendance was no small feat as I had a healthy respect for the supernatural and was filled with trepidation at the prospect of contacting Jacquie through a medium Would I see her? Would the sky open up? Would the earth shake? No. I'm afraid that's only in the movies. But this was my birthday and, although I remained ready to bolt out of the church door, Jacquie and I always made a big deal of our birthdays and I felt this might be a time that Jacquie would contact me if I had enough guts to get to the Church. So I took Jacquie's friends for reinforcement. The service consisted of a healing ceremony and then mediums offer readings to all church attendees. The medium calls on an attendee and requests that he/she say something - usually just "hello." I was chosen second and after I choked out "Hello" to the medium, Marie said, "There is someone here named 'Jack'." Now most people would agree that this goes beyond coincidence. Can you imagine my gratitude, grief shock, joy, and fear? I squeezed JJ's hand so hard that I may have fractured it- I had always called Jacquie, Jack. In her message, Jacquie instructed me to stop "spinning my wheels." She acknowledged that I had been praying lately for other people and that I had gifts. I was grateful that she heard me pray and that we still had a connection and that on some level we could still communicate though, believe me, I still craved her physical presence. At the end she said, "You are beautiful." I cried, giving thanks for what I considered confirmation that she was watching and that the previous contact that I had experienced was real and not my wishful thinking. On April 14, my mood was melancholy and I implored Jacquie to contact me. I prepared for church hesitatingly as I really did not want to go but something told me I should. So, at the last minute, I rushed out the door, wet-haired, and as I walked up the hill toward church, two young females walked past me engaged in conversation. As they passed me, I heard one young woman say loud and clear with her head toward me, "Mom, I love you." I spun my head around, nearly suffering whiplash in an attempt to get a better look at them. I knew that it was a message from Jacquie. As I contemplated the message the next day, I was more convinced and warmed by the knowledge that Jacquie had conveyed another message and told me she loved me. I was so grateful. On Mother's Day 2003 I went to Sedona, Arizona with my son, Kyle, his wife Missi and Mason, my grandson to visit Kristi, Missi's mom. Knowing the spiritual nature of Sedona, I approached the trip with a great deal of expectation, hoping that the heavens would open up and herald Jacquie. After my return home I had another reading and the details of my trip tumbled out of Natalie like a juggernaut. Natalie reported that we went from brilliant sun to a dark shop and I had purchased an angel. Jacquie said "I like the angel." I was ecstatic that Jacquie had apparently watched when I had purchased an amethyst angel in her honor. She also said that we traveled on a windy road and that someone had warned the driver about speeding. That was Missy warning Kyle to slow down. She specifically said, "Slow down -- remember who's in the car." Jacquie was unquestionably with us. At the two-year anniversary of Jacquie's entry into the next world, I had another eerie occurrence. I received a message on my answering machine, which is clearly a female voice saying "Mommy" There is some background static but the word "Mommy" is clear. I listened to the message many times and played it for any guests I had during the two months that I saved it. The message was received a couple of days after 9/3/03 and ironically, I inadvertently erased the message on her birthday. JJ told me that he and Jacquie had numerous conversations on this very subject -- afterlife communication. She believed that the phone was a frequently used tool for spirits to connect with people on earth. She was a great believer in contact - she watched John Edwards' "Crossing Over" on TV and she would often call me into her room to point out a particular segment of his show. Another inexplicable occurrence surrounded my locket. My boss said it was "spiritual" when I showed her! Jacquie has a heart shaped locket that I now wear. I have put a picture of Kyle, my son, and Jacquie inside either half of the heart of the locket and I wear it all of the time including in the shower. The picture of Kyle has absorbed so much moisture that it is totally obliterated and you cannot tell who the picture is or even that there is a picture there while Jacquie 's picture remains just as clear as the day I put it into the locket. I think this is the ultimate case of sibling rivalry! Jacquie is getting back at Kyle for all their disagreements and she is keeping her picture in focus. She'll show him. I have received some especially dramatic messages through readings with mediums that I encountered through reading "Love Never Dies" namely, Natalie and Ocallah. Natalie in particular has a special connection to Jacquie and has given me some very accurate and powerful readings. All the readings were via the phone. Below are highlights: · Jacquie has referenced her artwork during readings with Natalie on numerous occasions. I am convinced she watches me and wants me to continue framing, exhibiting, and incorporating her artwork into calendars and cards and whatever other projects I endeavor. For instance, during one reading, Jacquie mentioned the water color rag doll. She had, in fact, painted a rag doll and just that week I had framed it. However I had botched the job by cutting the painting crookedly in an attempt to fit it into the too-small frame. I vowed never to trim another one of her paintings for any reason. In another reading she noted plaster recently falling off the wall -that was when I had removed her painting from the wall that I had attached with two sided tape which was so adherent that it pulled sections of the plaster off the wall. Natalie noted that I had many painting of Jacquie hanging on my bedroom wall. In fact "a whole wall was covered with Jacquie's self-portraits." Jacquie, according to Natalie, was amused. Natalie accurately described my desk, the three framed pictures of Jacquie, the red flowers located behind the three pictures, the crystal heart and the "tiny" picture of my niece on my "brown" desk.
· Natalie is skilled at deciphering messages revolving around numbers and dates In one of my first readings Natalie referred to Jacquie's crossing over date of Sept 3. During my last reading Natalie said, "First I must acknowledge 4. I also must acknowledge 22." I smiled -- that is my son's birthday.
During a subsequent reading with Natalie, she asked who the "Mar" person is. As is often the case it didn't hit me until after the reading that she was referring to Mario, Hitomi's husband, who had told Jacquie to get in touch with me. Hitomi and I have not worked together for 3 years and after the death of my daughter and her husband we agree that this spiritual connection is the reason that we have stayed in touch when usually old coworkers promise to stay in touch but generally go off on their own separate ways. I have received the 4 message a number of time and in various ways including via the radio. Remarkably, on 11/24/03 several months later, I was watching the clock a few minutes before 4:44, hoping for some sort of message but knowing it did not constitute contact if I just stared at the clock so I rolled over intent on just listening to the radio before it was time to get up when the announcer said it's 4:44. I felt that Jacquie was near and had said good morning. I sometimes go several weeks without a message and whenever I think the 4:44 messages have ceased I receive another one. That's what happened on Saturday (11/30/03). I had returned home from Christmas shopping when my friend Janet called me on my cell phone. After hanging up, my phone message read "Last call @ 4:44." I knew it was Jacquie. I checked the time and it was 11:15. I believed she was pleased because I had stopped in a coffee shop to arrange an exhibit of her artwork. Natalie asked if I had received "Precious Moments" I told her, "No I had not received anything like that." (Natalie had to explain to me what they were: big-eyed Cherub/Angels often depicted in art, statutes and various trinkets.) "You will." Natalie said. June 13, I took groceries to Don (Jacquie's dad) and he gave me a sympathy card that he had been holding for eight months from a friend. On the front of the card was a "Precious Moments" angel/ cherub. I recalled Natalie's' words. Was that a precursor to the next day or reminder to pay attention? On June 14, as I dressed for work and picked up a pin to secure the scarf that I was wearing -- a pewter cherub angel that my friend Janet had give to me shortly after Jacquie crossed over. I had totally forgotten about this "precious moment!" I have two cherub angels which Jacquie had to point out to me. · Natalie said that Jacquie was pointing out that the kitchen totally was different. I corroborated that I had remodeled the kitchen. I had spent 16 hours the day after Christmas putting down new black and white floor tile. Jacquie had watched. · Natalie asked what I was mixing in my coffee cups. It sure wasn't coffee I was making. Was I craving hot chocolate? For several weeks I had been making various elixirs of hot water, teas and flower essences (inspired by Bach's "Flower Remedies" as another remedy for dealing with grief - I was trying anything). I had been brewing these concoctions in the coffee cups that I usually reserve for coffee and again Jacquie was watching this change in habit. · Jacquie also noted that I was wearing one of her bracelets as a necklace and said that was ok. I was wearing a bracelet that Jacquie had made using turquoise and white beads spelling her name "Jacquie" but it was too small to go around my wrist so I made it into a necklace by adding another chain to it and wearing it around my neck. At another subsequent reading, Natalie said that something was hanging which had Jacquie's name on it. Jacquie was watching that bracelet. I searched extensively for whatever was hanging but it was not until after the reading that I finally found it. I have a reading lamp by my bedside with a malleable neck where I hang all my necklaces after I take them off at the end of the day. I had probably 30 necklaces draped over the neck of the lamp but only one was unclasped and "hanging" and that was the "Jacquie" necklace/bracelet. Jacquie was keeping an eye on that bracelet On Friday night May 31, (several days before my next reading with Natalie) JJ called me to tell me that something exciting had happened. JJ was Jacquie's best friend, as I previously stated, and since Jacquie died he has become my friend also. We talk endlessly about Jacquie and for me she lives on in his stories. Anyway, when he called me that Friday night, JJ told me that he thought he had received a message from Jacquie. You have to realize that JJ is not a spiritual person and does not believe in afterlife communication. He needs proof. He wants God to appear in the Heavens and shout "JJ" Anyway, he relayed to me that he had a dream in which the lamp beside his bed slowly tipped over as if in slow motion. He thought to himself in his dream, "that is Jacquie." When he woke, he disappointedly thought, "That was only a dream." Then he felt as if someone was squeezing him from inside and outside as if in a hug. This was a unique experience, and again, he was convinced that this was Jacquie. He and I were both elated at a new message. But that was not the end of it! During a subsequent reading Natalie stated that I had been reading a plethora of books about spiritualism and after-life communication by such authors as John Edward, Sylvia Brown and James Van Praagh and they were located on a book shelf by my bed. She correctly listed all the author's names and the books' location. She said that I had a bookmark at page 101 in one of the books. After the reading, JJ and I went into my room to frenetically search my entire spiritual book collection (for they all had bookmarks - I was reading them all) in an effort to locate the book to which Natalie was referring. I looked at four or five books but could not find one with a bookmark at page 101. So disappointedly, JJ and I went to dinner at Steelheads. After dinner, when I returned home I was obsessed by the desire to locate the book that had the bookmark at 101. I picked up Embraced by the Light and the bookmark was at page 101. I freaked! I jumped up and down for joy. Jacquie was definitely watching me and sending a message to JJ and me. I called JJ explaining that book title was an exact translation of the message that Jacquie had conveyed to JJ a few days prior. She had embraced him by the light! It was a message and corroboration that we both frequently recall, discuss and treasure. JJ is now a former nonbeliever in communication with those who have crossed over though he, like me, need constant reminders of the power of the spirit world. Ocallah is the other medium that I have consulted and I believe is a skilled medium but does not connect as well with Jacquie and Natalie does. In the middle of our second reading she asked "Do you know Natalie?" You could have knocked me over with a feather. I was shocked that Jacquie had so clearly stated her preference -- Natalie -- when communicating with me. I realized that different mediums have different connections and so did Jacquie.
Actually, when Jacquie was about 8 years old, way before I even considered looking for messages; she came home from school one day and told me that someone in school said she was not going to live long. I pooh-pooh that whole notion and I don't think either one of us thought about it in the ensuing 20 years. It popped into my head the night of her surgery and have come to believe that God had sent me a message 20 years ago which I ignored. Who knows how many other messages I have missed. I want to be sure I don't miss any more. Thanks to these readings, some of my raw emotion has given way to hope and introspection and the belief that we are on a spiritual journey. We are here on earth to learn lessons and we are inextricably tied to certain souls. Pretty cliché, I know. My philosophy is still coalescing but I am sure that there is life after death and I believe that my daughter is watching over me. This helps me continue life, has made me realize that the most important lesson is love and connection and we stay connected into the next life. I know that when I go, I'll see her and until then I will be in touch with her. Love and Light I can't add any remark 'cause I'm astonished! Another wonderful proof that Natalie is a very skilled Medium and hope it will help many people who don't believe in the Afterlife and/or think that the loss of a child is a punishment from God! The Webmaster. |
NAT CONTACTED MOM 20 DAYS AFTER HER TRANSITION! Nat did a mini reading with Mom last Sunday and she got a precious validation from her. During last weeks of her illness, Mom complained with my brother and I (we're both Medicine Doctors) about her legs and hands that were too cold, especially legs. We both thought of a replica (metastases) on her vessels, but an ultrasound didn't show any. After her Transition, we all noticed that her limbs were hot again and this oddity lasted many hours. In her message Nat told us the following, astonishing words: Claudio, It's Natalie.I hope this email finds you and your family well. Nat was able also to told us another correct info: during last days, Fran and I planned a little vacation to meet our daughter Lydia who lives in Bologna! I'm more than astonished by her words! Webmaster |
NEW READING BY E-MAIL! Once again Nat was able to do a reading by e-mail, in spite of skeptics who claim that Mediums do "cold readings" asking questions and looking for people's behaviour during the sitting. "A." is a 5 y.o. little girl, she crossed over by a car accident in a foreign Country, her ********************* MORE ADDED ON OCT. 31-01 NAT!!! (Blue: Nat - Green: Claudio) I ask her :Do you miss them ? The Family Mom and Dad? HER MUM IS NOT ITALIAN! "A." DID ADC's BY PHONE AND USING CANDIES! THEY WERE GOIN' TO DO THIS (EVP's)! Two of her toys winding up had been seen by her Auntb and Mum, but they didn't believe it was a sign. SHE LOVED A LOT HER AUNT "F." here, NO WONDER IF ALSO THERE SHE SPENDS HER TIME WITH ANOTHER ONE. A FRIEND OF THEM DIED BY H.ATTACK! HE WAS VERY CLOSE TO ALICE! HER GRANDMOTHER DIED WITH HER IN THE SAME INCIDENT TOO. SURE, THEY LIVE IN A TOWN CLOSE TO THE SEA, BETTER TO SAY "IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SEA", CAUSE IT IS A NARROW STRIP OF GROUND THAT LINKS THE ITALY TO AN ISLAND . HER MUM IS UP AT 5:30 AM EVERYDAY AND NOW SHE LIKES COFFEE! HER MOTHER HAD A MISCARRIAGE, A GIRL WHEN SHE WAS 6 MONTHS PREGNANT SHE LOVED A LOT THIS MAN WHO DIED BEFORE HER SURE, HER DAD HAS A DRAWING OF HER HANGING ON IN HIS SHOP! CORRECT! THEY DIVORCED ONE YEAR AGO She is with her dog too! SHE LOVES A LOT A DOG (IT WAS HER UNCLE's DOG) THAT WAS KILLED BY A CAR A COUPLE OF MONTHS BEFORE "A.'s" TRANSITION SURE! HER PEOPLE SAY THAT SAINTS USE BIRDS TO COMMUNICATE WITH US! She says to thank them for the candle that was lit. Please let me know if I hit the mark on this as well. Natalie, WE ARE FULL OF JOY AND SAY "THANKS, THANKS, THANKS" TO YOU, YOUR HELP IS MUCH APPRECIATED, YOU GAVE BACK THE SMILE TO A WHOLE FAMILY THAT WAS IN DEEP GRIEF, THANKS ALSO FROM MYSELF AND TELL NICK THAT HE'S DOING A SUPERB JOB THERE, I'M PROUD OF HIM AND ALSO OF HIS NEW FRIENDS! Alice's aunt and her parents send thanks to Nat and gave me their authorization to publish her picture and the whole reading. |
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